I'm starting some work again. Being on my own, without a specific job or even a specific goal has been hard. It requires unwavering strength and belief that everything will work out the way it needs to. I was running around all over the internet researching what courses or trainings I need to do next and nothing was working out.
While I was muddled, a friend, a senior yoga teacher, reminded me that I shouldn't get obsessed with getting things "right " or achieving anything "too fast" and her words were like cold water thrown in my face. I woke up to all the pressure I had been putting on myself. Pressure to start working, pressure to figure out exactly which type of yoga I want to practice and teach, pressure to carve out a path for the next two to three years. And I also wanted all roads to take me to Singapore in a few months. Under so much pressure, none of the options I had felt right.
Once I let go, things just started working out. I met some old colleagues for lunch and an opportunity to teach yoga in the mornings came out of it. I've been teaching for two days now and while the 5:30am mornings sound really crazy, I'm elated as I drive to the class in the mornings. Am working on collaborations with other teachers in town and a really amazing workshop in Thailand is coming up in Feb. Suddenly, the pressure has eased and things don't seem as dark anymore!
I realized that all yoga teachers preach "go with the flow" as often as they say Om, but it's the hardest thing to do sometimes. Under pressure, insecurities soar and that can lead to unpredictable symptoms. In my case it often affects my self-esteem which in turn affects how I perceive anything that's said to me (or not said). "Go with the flow" sounds like total bull shit at that time.
While I was muddled, a friend, a senior yoga teacher, reminded me that I shouldn't get obsessed with getting things "right " or achieving anything "too fast" and her words were like cold water thrown in my face. I woke up to all the pressure I had been putting on myself. Pressure to start working, pressure to figure out exactly which type of yoga I want to practice and teach, pressure to carve out a path for the next two to three years. And I also wanted all roads to take me to Singapore in a few months. Under so much pressure, none of the options I had felt right.
Once I let go, things just started working out. I met some old colleagues for lunch and an opportunity to teach yoga in the mornings came out of it. I've been teaching for two days now and while the 5:30am mornings sound really crazy, I'm elated as I drive to the class in the mornings. Am working on collaborations with other teachers in town and a really amazing workshop in Thailand is coming up in Feb. Suddenly, the pressure has eased and things don't seem as dark anymore!
I realized that all yoga teachers preach "go with the flow" as often as they say Om, but it's the hardest thing to do sometimes. Under pressure, insecurities soar and that can lead to unpredictable symptoms. In my case it often affects my self-esteem which in turn affects how I perceive anything that's said to me (or not said). "Go with the flow" sounds like total bull shit at that time.
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Early mornings are really amazing. However, despite waking up at 4:45 am for the last 6-8 months, my body is still getting used to waking up early. I heard recently that if you don't eat anything beyond 7:00 pm in the night, you will have no trouble waking up. Now, thats quite a challenge isnt it? Going to be in hyd from Dec 19-23rd for a training. It will be cool to attend one of your classes.
yeah, if you're waking up at 4:30, you probably want to eat light by 7pm and hit the sack by 9 or 10.
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